This post was supposed to happen hours ago, however, my 10 month old daughter had another idea. Oh well, it's the life of a mother :) Plus I knew if I skipped writing today I'd lay in bed thinking of all the amazing witty (hopefully) things I should say and then tomorrow it wouldn't sound as cool.
Today I got a BUNCH of clothes from a friend at church. And they are great clothes, like adult clothes. I basically own jeans, t-shirts and flip flops, I mean I do love them and they will always be my favorite, but the clothes I got are so amazing, I can't wait to fit in them. Yup, they are a couple sizes too small but what motivation. I am so against buying "little" clothes for the "one day" mentality. I've done it so many times and those clothes have been given away, but I didn't spend a penny on these clothes, so it's not the same! So yeah, pretty excited about these clothes!
There was so much going on today I did not have a chance to work out. I thought I'd do it, I'd come home from errands and take care of it, but I am not mad at myself for not getting it done, I am simply human. I did very good on the eating, even picked up my husband some Jack in the Box and I made dinner at home. However, my dad's house is always a weakness of mine. There's never any judgement at his house, my parents were some of the accepting and least judgemental parents I've met. I used to go there for my sweet fix, when I wouldn't keep sweets in the house I could always count on my dad to have a Hostess snack, a cake, some brownies, something. Today I had to stop by for a minute, there were Christmas cookies on the kitchen table and out of pure habit I ate one, I was about 2 bites from the end before I even realized I shouldn't be eating it. But I also didn't have an afternoon snack so I just used that one cookie as my mid-day snack. No biggie, I'm actually pretty proud of myself for not munching down on more than just one.
The night time was again the hardest part of the day. Considering I was very busy the rest of the day it wasn't too bad. It made it even harder that about the time I sat down to write my daughter woke up and even though I stayed very calm with her during the 2 hours that she was gassy (yup, she let out a few farts, drank a bottle and fell back to sleep....after 2 hours) there was an urge to just get something to eat while I was dealing with her. She nursed every 40 minutes for the first 4ish months of life so I pretty much sat, nursed and ate things for 4 months...oops.
Monday will be interesting for me. Often Monday was a binge day for me, not that I really restrained any other day but Monday just seemed to be a more than normal day. Everyone was either at work or school and it was just Isaac, Zoe and myself. I'd make pancakes or something similar for breakfast, I'd have a huge lunch and usually snack all day long. I'd often plan my Monday food in my head all day on Sunday. Thinking about it, changing it up as the day went on and my mood changed, checking the pantry to make sure it had what I wanted and sometimes getting mad if my food plan was spoiled. I just realized in this moment, that this is exactly why me starting my 'diets' on Mondays never ever worked!! I'd sabatage myself the first day and instead of trying again on Tuesday I'd be so disappointed, angry, or frustrated at myself I'd just continue the unhealthy cycle. I'm sure I can push through this Monday, I'm actually very confident of this, I've already made my 'to do' list if I start to get restless and I've gotten some FitTV shows recorded and I've planned pretty much what I'm eating tomorrow and it doesn't include chocolate chip pancakes or party pizzas!!
Sunday, January 2, 2011
Saturday, January 1, 2011
Day 1
I hope to have cooler titles than this, but it's all I got right now.
I worked out to "Exhale Core Fusion" which even though I wasn't drenched in sweat it was HARD, in a good way. It was all abdominal work, or "core" work I suppose. Which is great, and something I'm definitely going to want to do again and again as time goes on. Especially considering core work will help with back issues and from time to time I get a sore back. (I fell off our lawnmower last summer, it's a hilarious story I promise, but since then my back seems to get sore more often.) There were 2 hosts for the workout, a man and a woman. And it was voiceovers...what is up with that!!?? And it was two voices, a man and a woman, so it was kind of like listening to the voices in their heads communicate, but I'm beginning to find humor in all these voice overs so I went with it. I was screaming in the first 3 minutes of the workout, so I'm glad I did it. However, it probably won't be my only work out for the day anymore, it will be in addition to something that makes me sweat. I was definitely hot and my heart was racing when I was done. On an annoyance note, FitTV is not all fitness stuff anymore. They do a few hours in the morning and then it's weird programming from then on out. It will make it hard to find variation, but I got some tricks up my sleeve.
On with the food report. I'm fairly proud of my choices today. I definitely feel good about what I accomplished in that area today. But I'll be honest, it wasn't easy. It took a lot of "NO" to walk past the food I would normally just pick up and eat, without a second thought. And the late nights are really hard. I know my husband, when he lost weight 4ish years ago, would just go to bed early, but I'm in this stage that I really like these late nights, so I may have to adjust if I can't keep up the 'no's. I just kept reminding myself I can eat in the morning, that I'm not hungry, I just want to eat something. I am chewing gum, I don't have an opinion on whether it's really helping me right now, or just annoying me that I'm just chewing and chewing and chewing. It's like being on a treadmill, a lot of walking and going no place. So, normally, now that everyone is sleeping, I'd just get up and find something to munch on, chips, a pb & j sandwich, cookies, pretty much whatever I wanted, because no one could see me doing it, so the calories didn't count right? But instead I'm just letting the voices in my head argue it out, and I promise you, the 'good' voice will win from now on out.
I kept myself pretty busy today. I knew if I sat and watched TV for too long, or farted around on the internet I'd reach for something to put in my mouth. So I made sure I had a list of things I wanted to get accomplished today around the house, so I always had something to go to if I was sitting for too long and started to get the feeling I needed food. I also have a stack of probably 25 magazines that I've never read that I also would go to in case I couldn't get my mind to settle. I promise you the thoughts are always lingering, it's pretty ridiculous how often I think about food in a day. I wonder what it compares to men thinking about sex in a day. I'm sure as the days roll by I'll only realize it even more. I'll have to retrain my brain I guess, or just find humor in the voices in my head as they duke it out.
Tomorrow is a new day. I have to make sure I get up early enough to eat a breakfast that will satisfy me until 12:30/1ish when we get home (we leave around 8:45). I also love the idea of getting up early enough to at least get in 30 minutes of exercise, especially since I have to start running errands pretty much as soon as we get home and eat. So, we'll see. I'm not going to be hard on myself if it doesn't happen. I won't be mad at myself if I can't get a work out in until the evening. It's all about working with what I got. I wonder who would notice if I rocked pajama pants to church tomorrow?
I worked out to "Exhale Core Fusion" which even though I wasn't drenched in sweat it was HARD, in a good way. It was all abdominal work, or "core" work I suppose. Which is great, and something I'm definitely going to want to do again and again as time goes on. Especially considering core work will help with back issues and from time to time I get a sore back. (I fell off our lawnmower last summer, it's a hilarious story I promise, but since then my back seems to get sore more often.) There were 2 hosts for the workout, a man and a woman. And it was voiceovers...what is up with that!!?? And it was two voices, a man and a woman, so it was kind of like listening to the voices in their heads communicate, but I'm beginning to find humor in all these voice overs so I went with it. I was screaming in the first 3 minutes of the workout, so I'm glad I did it. However, it probably won't be my only work out for the day anymore, it will be in addition to something that makes me sweat. I was definitely hot and my heart was racing when I was done. On an annoyance note, FitTV is not all fitness stuff anymore. They do a few hours in the morning and then it's weird programming from then on out. It will make it hard to find variation, but I got some tricks up my sleeve.
On with the food report. I'm fairly proud of my choices today. I definitely feel good about what I accomplished in that area today. But I'll be honest, it wasn't easy. It took a lot of "NO" to walk past the food I would normally just pick up and eat, without a second thought. And the late nights are really hard. I know my husband, when he lost weight 4ish years ago, would just go to bed early, but I'm in this stage that I really like these late nights, so I may have to adjust if I can't keep up the 'no's. I just kept reminding myself I can eat in the morning, that I'm not hungry, I just want to eat something. I am chewing gum, I don't have an opinion on whether it's really helping me right now, or just annoying me that I'm just chewing and chewing and chewing. It's like being on a treadmill, a lot of walking and going no place. So, normally, now that everyone is sleeping, I'd just get up and find something to munch on, chips, a pb & j sandwich, cookies, pretty much whatever I wanted, because no one could see me doing it, so the calories didn't count right? But instead I'm just letting the voices in my head argue it out, and I promise you, the 'good' voice will win from now on out.
I kept myself pretty busy today. I knew if I sat and watched TV for too long, or farted around on the internet I'd reach for something to put in my mouth. So I made sure I had a list of things I wanted to get accomplished today around the house, so I always had something to go to if I was sitting for too long and started to get the feeling I needed food. I also have a stack of probably 25 magazines that I've never read that I also would go to in case I couldn't get my mind to settle. I promise you the thoughts are always lingering, it's pretty ridiculous how often I think about food in a day. I wonder what it compares to men thinking about sex in a day. I'm sure as the days roll by I'll only realize it even more. I'll have to retrain my brain I guess, or just find humor in the voices in my head as they duke it out.
Tomorrow is a new day. I have to make sure I get up early enough to eat a breakfast that will satisfy me until 12:30/1ish when we get home (we leave around 8:45). I also love the idea of getting up early enough to at least get in 30 minutes of exercise, especially since I have to start running errands pretty much as soon as we get home and eat. So, we'll see. I'm not going to be hard on myself if it doesn't happen. I won't be mad at myself if I can't get a work out in until the evening. It's all about working with what I got. I wonder who would notice if I rocked pajama pants to church tomorrow?
Friday, December 31, 2010
Prepare for the Year of Awesomeness
Saw a commerical for Kung Fu Panda 2 and they said "Prepare for the Year of Awesomeness" and I'm pretty sure I'll say that 12389128391028 times the next year! Regardless of the goals I'm going to accomplish this year, I am going to make sure my year is awesome.
I got to exercize outside today!!! So exciting! I love to walk/jog outside. And I actually went for a walk twice because it was so nice. What a great feeling to feel the wamth of the sun on the last day of the year. It kind of makes me want to be by the ocean next year for the New Year. The sun sometimes bites me, but I sure do love to soak it up. The two walks were really what my spirit needed. It's so funny to me the moods I get in while I walk. I always first want to hear music that sets my feet to a pace. It usually is pop music, which normally isn't my genre of choice, but it works so well. I like to pretend in my head that I'm on a run way, so I have to keep the beat of the song. I'm pretty amazing at it to be honest.
Part of the way through my walk I started to think about what I've started here and felt a little bit of anxiety. What if I fail? Will I ever reveal where I've started? What if I just binge for a day, will I be honest about it? Can I push through all the birthdays, death anniversaries, and the dramas that swirl around one or two particular people in my life? So, I changed the music. I sought out worship music and not only soaked up the sun but just let the Holy Spirit rain down on my walks, lifting the anxiety and comfort me.
I actually read a story on cnn.com about a lady, Lysa TerKeurst, (don't read the comments, most of them are infuriating, I can't believe some people take the time to be so hateful) and she was so inspirational to me. I had actually gotten mad at God myself for the way I looked and all the tragedy that surrounded the emotional eating. I never lost my faith, but I definitely know the frustration, and it was probably the same frustration I felt during 4 1/2 years of trying to get pregnant. Whether God is what you believe in or not, I know you can accomplish your goals as I can. Whatever you're having faith in, whatever mantra, meditation or words of encouragement you need, go with that!
I also read the People Magazine today that features people "Half Their Size", it also interviewed Drew Carey and many other people on their weight loss journey. There are so many success stories out there, it makes me wonder why mine would make any more of a difference than anyone elses. But, it's really more about accountability at this point. I mean with The Biggest Loser, Dance your A$$ off, Celebrity Fit Club...etc. etc. you can always turn on the TV and listen to the stories. So this year, I join their stories, I don't just listen, I get to be the storyteller, a role I've always enjoyed.
I've been reminding myself all day that it's not like I can't eat blank forever, I'm just choosing not to eat it now. I mean, I'd never really survive never being able to eat peanut butter and jelly again, that's just a ludacris idea!
Whatever your goals are for 2011, know that you CAN accomplish them. Baby steps and positivity are the first steps!
I got to exercize outside today!!! So exciting! I love to walk/jog outside. And I actually went for a walk twice because it was so nice. What a great feeling to feel the wamth of the sun on the last day of the year. It kind of makes me want to be by the ocean next year for the New Year. The sun sometimes bites me, but I sure do love to soak it up. The two walks were really what my spirit needed. It's so funny to me the moods I get in while I walk. I always first want to hear music that sets my feet to a pace. It usually is pop music, which normally isn't my genre of choice, but it works so well. I like to pretend in my head that I'm on a run way, so I have to keep the beat of the song. I'm pretty amazing at it to be honest.
Part of the way through my walk I started to think about what I've started here and felt a little bit of anxiety. What if I fail? Will I ever reveal where I've started? What if I just binge for a day, will I be honest about it? Can I push through all the birthdays, death anniversaries, and the dramas that swirl around one or two particular people in my life? So, I changed the music. I sought out worship music and not only soaked up the sun but just let the Holy Spirit rain down on my walks, lifting the anxiety and comfort me.
I actually read a story on cnn.com about a lady, Lysa TerKeurst, (don't read the comments, most of them are infuriating, I can't believe some people take the time to be so hateful) and she was so inspirational to me. I had actually gotten mad at God myself for the way I looked and all the tragedy that surrounded the emotional eating. I never lost my faith, but I definitely know the frustration, and it was probably the same frustration I felt during 4 1/2 years of trying to get pregnant. Whether God is what you believe in or not, I know you can accomplish your goals as I can. Whatever you're having faith in, whatever mantra, meditation or words of encouragement you need, go with that!
I also read the People Magazine today that features people "Half Their Size", it also interviewed Drew Carey and many other people on their weight loss journey. There are so many success stories out there, it makes me wonder why mine would make any more of a difference than anyone elses. But, it's really more about accountability at this point. I mean with The Biggest Loser, Dance your A$$ off, Celebrity Fit Club...etc. etc. you can always turn on the TV and listen to the stories. So this year, I join their stories, I don't just listen, I get to be the storyteller, a role I've always enjoyed.
I've been reminding myself all day that it's not like I can't eat blank forever, I'm just choosing not to eat it now. I mean, I'd never really survive never being able to eat peanut butter and jelly again, that's just a ludacris idea!
Whatever your goals are for 2011, know that you CAN accomplish them. Baby steps and positivity are the first steps!
Thursday, December 30, 2010
To shimmy or not to shimmy
Today I recorded the FitTV series "Shimmy" a.k.a. belly dancing not for beginners. I'm a fairly coordinated individual and it did not show today. There was another issue with a voice over, which, again is a little weird. And they kept showing just the face of the girls, um, I kind of need to see what their bodies are doing, so I can copy it, just sayin'. The voice over was also very demanding, which was kind of cracking me up. The last two minutes I was instructed to "let go, just move, be free." And well, since I had no clue what I was doing I just sort of wiggled around. I did not sweat, which the point of working out is sweating, so this will not be a show I record regularly.
I actually did it, I got on the scale. I didn't have time for breakfast this morning and was getting ready to 'shimmy' and decided to just do it, to just suck it up (cause we all know sucking it in helps on the scale...right?). It was not as bad as I thought it was going to be, but the few pounds I lost before Thanksgiving were waving high, I was not waving back, I was pointing with a select phalange.
Tomorrow is the last day of 2010, I'm not sure about anyone else, but I'm pretty certain 2011 is going to be amazing!!!
I actually did it, I got on the scale. I didn't have time for breakfast this morning and was getting ready to 'shimmy' and decided to just do it, to just suck it up (cause we all know sucking it in helps on the scale...right?). It was not as bad as I thought it was going to be, but the few pounds I lost before Thanksgiving were waving high, I was not waving back, I was pointing with a select phalange.
Tomorrow is the last day of 2010, I'm not sure about anyone else, but I'm pretty certain 2011 is going to be amazing!!!
Wednesday, December 29, 2010
Now, it's today..no it really is
So, today (yes actually today...quit pretending and pay attention), I met with an amazing friend of mine to have lunch. We picked Qdoba, I can make good choices there. I made an okay choice. She has not had the pleasure of reading my blog yet, even though she's been so encouraging about it. She had a hilarious story about some jeans she wore to work one day and hopefully I will have the pleasure of sharing it soon!
We decided after we had lunch, that we would try to go find "Sweatin' to the Oldies" at the resale shops! On our way we went. At the first shop we found some pretty great VHS tapes to work out to. I cannot wait to try them out, but no "Sweatin' to the Oldies" we did find some other weird Richard Simmons work out but I'm pretty set on finding the Oldies, it's classic and awesome, it's a must have. We made our way to the second shop and they did not have it, they didn't really have much at all. We did look through jeans and I found a second pair of jeans that actually fit! Hurray! And I only paid $4 so even better.
I got home, got on the treadmill for 30 minutes. I kept on my work out clothes for a while hoping I'd find the time to work out again but as the night went on and duty called the energy was zapped right out of me for a work out. It's okay, I did 30 minutes and I'm happy with that. While I was on the treadmill I watched "Legally Blonde". I have a whole process behind picking my treadmill movie. I have to pick a funny movie, one that will keep my interest, that I haven't watched in a while, it cannot be a movie I have never seen because it can be hard to hear with the treadmill running and the baby monitor on sometimes. I did watch the first three "Bring It On" movies a few weeks ago on the treadmill, they are VERY treadmill worthy. Hilarious, high energy and just the right amount of ridiculous and quotable "bomb diggity"...
My husband hooked up our VCR to the TV so I can soon use my amazing work out video tapes! I so enjoy these late nights to have to myself. It's hard to decide between having these late nights and getting up super early to work out before anything else in the day. I realize that would be time to myself, if everyone is sleeping and maybe I wouldn't feel so rushed to get in the work outs during the day, I'd have time to do other things. So, we'll see, I continue to digest the idea in my head. I mean, I could dedicate 5 months to getting up super early and go from there. 5 months is nothing in the grand scheme of things.
We decided after we had lunch, that we would try to go find "Sweatin' to the Oldies" at the resale shops! On our way we went. At the first shop we found some pretty great VHS tapes to work out to. I cannot wait to try them out, but no "Sweatin' to the Oldies" we did find some other weird Richard Simmons work out but I'm pretty set on finding the Oldies, it's classic and awesome, it's a must have. We made our way to the second shop and they did not have it, they didn't really have much at all. We did look through jeans and I found a second pair of jeans that actually fit! Hurray! And I only paid $4 so even better.
I got home, got on the treadmill for 30 minutes. I kept on my work out clothes for a while hoping I'd find the time to work out again but as the night went on and duty called the energy was zapped right out of me for a work out. It's okay, I did 30 minutes and I'm happy with that. While I was on the treadmill I watched "Legally Blonde". I have a whole process behind picking my treadmill movie. I have to pick a funny movie, one that will keep my interest, that I haven't watched in a while, it cannot be a movie I have never seen because it can be hard to hear with the treadmill running and the baby monitor on sometimes. I did watch the first three "Bring It On" movies a few weeks ago on the treadmill, they are VERY treadmill worthy. Hilarious, high energy and just the right amount of ridiculous and quotable "bomb diggity"...
My husband hooked up our VCR to the TV so I can soon use my amazing work out video tapes! I so enjoy these late nights to have to myself. It's hard to decide between having these late nights and getting up super early to work out before anything else in the day. I realize that would be time to myself, if everyone is sleeping and maybe I wouldn't feel so rushed to get in the work outs during the day, I'd have time to do other things. So, we'll see, I continue to digest the idea in my head. I mean, I could dedicate 5 months to getting up super early and go from there. 5 months is nothing in the grand scheme of things.
Let's Pretend it's Yesterday
I had every intention to post yesterday and time just slipped away. So we will pretend that it's yesterday...is everyone pretending?
First, I'd like to let it known that I did purchase a new pair of jeans...that fit!! The size wasn't as gut wrenching as I had originally thought, so that's good, but it was definitely bigger than the "thinning thighs" jeans I've been wearing. The new jeans said "skinny" jeans, which is pretty hilarious considering the size, but I thought that the legs would fit better inside my boots. I was very mistaken, I still had the "boot pooch" that just isn't pretty. I'll still do it sometimes, but the boot pooch is something I hope to avoid one day! I guess the makers assume that because the size is bigger the wearers calves must be bigger, I don't know, it's my only logical guess at this point. The jeans are cute, so I'm just glad to have jeans that don't feel like they are going to split getting into the car.
Secondly, I worked out, twice, to FitTV shows. The first one was Weight Loss Workout "Pure Sculpt" with Violet Sahi (SP?). It was 30 minutes, about 25 after commercials. She's british, which makes her fun to listen to. And she's totally ripped. She had lots of great energy and none of the moves were so hard that I couldn't do them. Plus, she had one girl doing the "modified" version of all the moves. I was sweating at the end, so that's was good, she had occassional "cardio blasts". I don't really have that much to say about it.
I then decided later in the day to try the Bollywood Dance show that I had recorded. It looked so alluring on the commercials and I'm fairly coordinated so I was pretty sure I'd be awesome at it. I was not awesome at it. First, there was a voice over, which was insanely distracting. And the Bollywood is high energy and a little silly when you're first doing it and the voice over was trying to be all calming and soothing, it didn't really mix. I tried, I gave it 100% for about 6 minutes and then....I was done. I have no issues looking silly, no one was around anyway, but I just didn't have it. I will definitely give it another try in the future. So, instead, I went to my tried and true 'Total Body Sculpt with Gilad" and it did the trick, lots of sweating and a silly buff man calling all the shots.
My food choices were not perfect, okay, let's stick with honesty, they weren't good. Not terrible, but not good either. It's fine, I will not feel the guilt or shame I have always felt in the past.
First, I'd like to let it known that I did purchase a new pair of jeans...that fit!! The size wasn't as gut wrenching as I had originally thought, so that's good, but it was definitely bigger than the "thinning thighs" jeans I've been wearing. The new jeans said "skinny" jeans, which is pretty hilarious considering the size, but I thought that the legs would fit better inside my boots. I was very mistaken, I still had the "boot pooch" that just isn't pretty. I'll still do it sometimes, but the boot pooch is something I hope to avoid one day! I guess the makers assume that because the size is bigger the wearers calves must be bigger, I don't know, it's my only logical guess at this point. The jeans are cute, so I'm just glad to have jeans that don't feel like they are going to split getting into the car.
Secondly, I worked out, twice, to FitTV shows. The first one was Weight Loss Workout "Pure Sculpt" with Violet Sahi (SP?). It was 30 minutes, about 25 after commercials. She's british, which makes her fun to listen to. And she's totally ripped. She had lots of great energy and none of the moves were so hard that I couldn't do them. Plus, she had one girl doing the "modified" version of all the moves. I was sweating at the end, so that's was good, she had occassional "cardio blasts". I don't really have that much to say about it.
I then decided later in the day to try the Bollywood Dance show that I had recorded. It looked so alluring on the commercials and I'm fairly coordinated so I was pretty sure I'd be awesome at it. I was not awesome at it. First, there was a voice over, which was insanely distracting. And the Bollywood is high energy and a little silly when you're first doing it and the voice over was trying to be all calming and soothing, it didn't really mix. I tried, I gave it 100% for about 6 minutes and then....I was done. I have no issues looking silly, no one was around anyway, but I just didn't have it. I will definitely give it another try in the future. So, instead, I went to my tried and true 'Total Body Sculpt with Gilad" and it did the trick, lots of sweating and a silly buff man calling all the shots.
My food choices were not perfect, okay, let's stick with honesty, they weren't good. Not terrible, but not good either. It's fine, I will not feel the guilt or shame I have always felt in the past.
Monday, December 27, 2010
Addiction or no will-power?
So, I watched True Life: I'm Addicted to Food tonight. And everything thing these girls said to me made perfect sense. If I mess up eating, I eat again because "what's the point". The goal is so big it's hard to wrap my head around. I eat to soothe, I eat to calm, I eat to mask an emotion, I eat because I'm bored...I could go on and on and on.
Here's where I find my difference. I can and do tell myself 'no'. Not as often as I probably should at this point, but I do. Today, we went out to eat, I had this amazing salad, maybe not the BEST choice I could have made but man I wanted a burger. Right now, when everyone else is asleep and I'm typing this out and I'm watching mindless TV, a snack would be the first thing I go get, but I'm choosing not to get a snack. I let it known tonight that I will not be eating Chinese Buffet for at least the next 5 months, because, let's be honest, there are no good choices at Chinese Buffet. I can make decent choices at most places we eat, and when I can't, I will let my husband know that we cannot eat there because I cannot make a good choice.
I'm having a hard time not making this blog too heavy. If I dug to the root of my eating, it would definitely become too heavy for this. I find honesty sometimes can be. But here's my new truth: not only CAN I do all things through Christ who strengthens me, but I WILL do all things through Christ who stregthens me.
I know I won't be perfect, but I will not "punish" myself when I mess up. I won't reward myself with food when I do good and I won't sabatoge myself. I will be my own best friend, my best cheerleader! I have two of the greatest allies on my side, and that's my God and my husband!
So, I'm thinking about trying some of these workouts on the Fitness Channel. I already work out to Gilad, "the Israely fitness god", that's what he calls himself. So maybe I'll try experimenting with some other ones. And I'm pretty sure I'm gonna YouTube "Sweatin' to the Oldies" cause I'd probably laugh the entire time, a double work out in one!! Which is also going to be part of my routine...laughing more!
So soon this becomes legit! Saturday is January 1st, I kind of wish January 1st was a Monday. Don't we all try to start new things on Mondays? I know how I'd like my day to start, if I post it, and I dont' do it, then I'm just kind of publicly failing. So, right now, I don't feel comfortable posting it. This does not make me a chicken, getting out of my comfort zone is a whole new concept to me. So one step at a time. Starting this blog and making it available for people to read was the first step. I am now accountable to you....whoever you are....
Here's where I find my difference. I can and do tell myself 'no'. Not as often as I probably should at this point, but I do. Today, we went out to eat, I had this amazing salad, maybe not the BEST choice I could have made but man I wanted a burger. Right now, when everyone else is asleep and I'm typing this out and I'm watching mindless TV, a snack would be the first thing I go get, but I'm choosing not to get a snack. I let it known tonight that I will not be eating Chinese Buffet for at least the next 5 months, because, let's be honest, there are no good choices at Chinese Buffet. I can make decent choices at most places we eat, and when I can't, I will let my husband know that we cannot eat there because I cannot make a good choice.
I'm having a hard time not making this blog too heavy. If I dug to the root of my eating, it would definitely become too heavy for this. I find honesty sometimes can be. But here's my new truth: not only CAN I do all things through Christ who strengthens me, but I WILL do all things through Christ who stregthens me.
I know I won't be perfect, but I will not "punish" myself when I mess up. I won't reward myself with food when I do good and I won't sabatoge myself. I will be my own best friend, my best cheerleader! I have two of the greatest allies on my side, and that's my God and my husband!
So, I'm thinking about trying some of these workouts on the Fitness Channel. I already work out to Gilad, "the Israely fitness god", that's what he calls himself. So maybe I'll try experimenting with some other ones. And I'm pretty sure I'm gonna YouTube "Sweatin' to the Oldies" cause I'd probably laugh the entire time, a double work out in one!! Which is also going to be part of my routine...laughing more!
So soon this becomes legit! Saturday is January 1st, I kind of wish January 1st was a Monday. Don't we all try to start new things on Mondays? I know how I'd like my day to start, if I post it, and I dont' do it, then I'm just kind of publicly failing. So, right now, I don't feel comfortable posting it. This does not make me a chicken, getting out of my comfort zone is a whole new concept to me. So one step at a time. Starting this blog and making it available for people to read was the first step. I am now accountable to you....whoever you are....
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